1/5/2018 0 Comments still pregnant! 6 weeksHello! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I was digesting the pregnancy news, dealing with some early symptoms and being all around shell-shocked. So I have a lot of ground to cover. According to the internet, I'm 6 weeks and 3 days pregnant and my due date is Aug 28. It still is a bit crazy to me and I am really worried a lot of the time about miscarrying. I'm finding it difficult emotionally, because I don't know very many people who've done IVF and have had a baby successfully. In fact, I think I know one - my cousin. But I just find that most people default to "being positive" when you mention any worries. It's great to have a positive attitude but the reality is that miscarriages happen and it's a real fear.
Beyond that, it's lonely in general being very early on in pregnancy, because you don't really want to tell anyone (for the above reasons). I have told quite a few people because they knew we were doing IVF and they naturally wondered how it went. I actually would prefer to keep it a secret, but I suppose you have to weigh that need against the need for support while you're going through infertility. So I've told some people and will wait to tell the rest until the 12 week mark. Symptoms! I've had symptoms for about 10 days now. The fatigue started then although if I manage to get enough rest, I'm fine. Morning sickness is sort of plaguing me - the worst of it started about three days ago, right at 6 weeks like clockwork. Apparently it peaks around 10 weeks - someone told me that so I'd feel better but I was mainly like WTF, it's going to get WORSE?! I mainly feel like a fat mess because I already gained a bunch of weight from all the fertility treatments and now I've been eating carbs like crazy to curb the nausea. (Not to mention that I'm still on hormones, which I'm sure are making me bloated AND, surprise!, first trimester pregnancy makes you constipated.) But I'm trying my best to get some fruits and veggies in though I'd rather eat bread 24/7. And not because it's pleasurable to eat (!) because if I have an empty stomach, I feel sick. I don't know how women work through this. They must be superwomen. I, however, am a crybaby mess and do not know how I'm going to do this for another 4 weeks. Apparently the second trimester is a paradise utopia filled with jelly donuts and harp playing angels, but I wonder if it just feels that way in the absence of morning sickness. I don't remember what it's like to feel like my normal non-hormonal self, all I remember is that life was more enjoyable back then. (Sigh.) That being said, we're very happy (yay!) and I am DYING to get to Monday, which is when we have our first ultrasound!!! I've found it difficult to find websites that I like to read about this whole pregnancy thing, but here are two that I've found to be best: Alpha Mom This one is very voice-y (in a good way) and doesn't bullshit. I like it because it told me to eat junk food. The Bump I really liked The Bump's offering on infertility content and the community in general. I like their week-by-week thing - it's well-written and in layman's terms.
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