So, this shouldn't even be called the two week wait because it was actually a 10 day wait. So not EVEN two weeks. Just a measly week and three days. ANYONE CAN DO THAT, RIGHT?!?! Ugh. I haaate this. My blood test is tomorrow. Usually when I've had treatments before, I spot a few days before the test so I already know that it didn't work (I always spot before my period). This time, I've been nauseous, my boobs hurt, I'm tired - all possible pregnancy symptoms but also possible side effects from the massive amount of hormones I've been taking.
This round was way harder than the first for a lot of reasons: I've been working (I was at home during my first round), I haven't been meditating as much (I participated in a nine week meditation course during my first round), I only got 7 eggs this time (I had 16 the first round) and the hormones have been much more difficult to deal with (being at work probably hasn't helped with that part)... and let's face it, I'm a year older. Despite all of that, this was my best shot at treatment being successful. I have perfectly good hormone levels, am fertile and have good quality eggs. We were using donor sperm this time. We put two embryos in (one of which was "beautiful"). It was all down to my uterine lining being good (which, medically, it was) and receptive (we're about to find that part out). I FEEL like it worked this time. But that's a dangerous thing to feel, so I've been (trying to) hold back from feeling that way. ARGH, it's just so frustrating. It's not just ten days (or two weeks), it's three years. Y'know?
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12/12/2017 0 Comments ready to get a positive test already!I couldn't think of a clever title, or a clever picture or a clever anything. We had four fertilized eggs and in the end, two made it. So we put them both in. One was a "beautiful" embryo, not sure what that says about the other one. I named them Chloe and Joey. I hope they make it because if not, I think I'd have to retire the names.
The transfer day was okay, I was feeling stressed and then feeling stressed about feeling stressed. I had an acupuncturist come in and give me treatment before and after. I wish I felt more relaxed, maybe it helped. Apparently the stats on acupuncture after transfer are pretty good, so fingers crossed. I had the transfer on Sunday and then came back to work on Monday. I know a lot of websites suggest taking a few days off, but I didn't feel comfortable asking for more time off. I've been okay, mostly. I've done a LOT of meditations. Mainly I just want to know already. But I want to know that it WORKED, you know? I really don't want to go through this anymore. I'm tired, bloated, hungry all the time and I cry at random. I just want this, universe. I have asked everyone I know to send good vibes to the little guys in there. Right now, I'm "medically pregnant", so just trying my best to be healthy (and then eating a Tim Horton's sausage muffin, yknow, for balance). I'm ready!! HELLOOO uterus! Wish me luck. 9/24/2017 0 Comments am i pregnant? two week waitingSo my last post was about how I hate waiting, this post is about the two week wait. AKA TWW. AKA BORRRRING! We booked a trip to Hawaii during this time because it's in between treatments, which is cool. Hopefully I'll be able to enjoy myself. No drinking (boring), only one and a half cups of coffee per day (boring) and trying not to think about the thing that I of course am thinking about. AM. I. PREGNANT.
But Hawaii will be amazing and after a couple of years of fertility treatment and losing my job and getting a new job and renovating, I think a vacation is in order. Surviving the two week wait is never easy but being in a beautiful paradise should help, right? For some reason, I'm extra hopeful this month, I've just been feeling some good vibes and the hormones this month haven't had the same awful effects they had last month. Could this all signify something? Trying not to get TOO hopeful. Well, the next entry will have all the answers. My blood test is Oct 4. (WISH ME LUCK!!) |
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November 2017
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