10/31/2017 0 Comments oh my gerdSo, the stress is getting to me. I can tell because the telltale symptoms of GERD started to rear their ugly head this evening. That's pretty much when your stomach acid creeps up your esophagus. It's pretty uncomfortable and it happens to me when I'm seriously stressed. So, here's what's happening:
The stakes are high, we need this round to work because we'll be out of money and I'm getting older. The financial stresses are really adding up. J says, "But we have money coming in" ... Sure, but I really like to have savings tucked away. I know that a lot of people are in debt and don't have savings, but I grew up poor and am basically a squirrel with nuts hidden everywhere for winter. What I don't want is no savings. What if something bad happens?! Plus, I'm really worried that going through IVF will make me less effective at my job... and my job is challenging. I want a challenging a job, yes. But this is a pretty big job. I know I can do it, but it doesn't leave much time for processing emotions outside of work (I deal with a lot of people when they're at their most irate). I'm almost disappointed in myself for not being better at dealing with all of this. I went to a party this weekend - I did NOT want to go, it was a family party and I felt obliged. I broke down in tears in the middle of the party and had to leave (smooth). It was an excellent reminded to not force myself to do things, despite other peoples' expectations of me. Speaking of which: next post will be WHEN YOUR FAMILY SUCKS AND DOESN'T UNDERSTAND YOUR FERTILITY JOURNEY.
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