10/25/2017 0 Comments ivf: round two, good to goThe process of walking into the fertility clinic is always an emotional thing. Every round gets heavier. That's the best way to describe it. The hope you had at the start of the process, the ignorance of success rates, the brightness - that's gone now in favour of being weary. Knowing that the odds are against you. But something inside makes you want to keep going. This biological need for a baby.
Today's appointment was to get everything set up. We had an appointment with a junior doctor and then the big honcho, our doctor. She's the best fertility doctor in Toronto (last time I checked). She was the judge. It was up to her. She said she understood why we wanted to go ahead with IVF - I'm 37, we've been doing this for years, the success rates are higher, et cetera. She recommended ICSI so we'd only have to buy one vial of donor sperm. That adds another $1500 to the cost of the procedure, but I didn't realize we'd need more than one vial, so each vial would have been another $760 a pop. Procedures are adding up (have been for a while) and the financial stress has really been weighing on me. Renos aren't cheap, being unemployed didn't help and did decide to go on vacation (which, fuck, we needed). Aside from the finances, the hormone mood swings peppered with genuine sadness, the new job, the house, everything everything everything, I'm just... tired. I'm gearing up, training, getting ready. This is a physical feat, an emotional feat. I gotta get ready. I can do this. We can do this. This one HAS to work.
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