3/3/2017 0 Comments infertility is exhausting.Everything's on hold. When you're trying, you turn down trips and festivals and parties and plans. "We'll I'll be pregnant by then," you think, "I don't want to stay at an all inclusive." You count ahead 40 weeks. "I'll be pregnant in July so I'll have the baby in April. The shower could be in March!"
So many plans! Your life is dictated by your ovulation predictor. And don't even talk to me about the two week wait. Then fertility tests. All those tests. For us, it started with genetic testing. Then things like a sonohystogram. Blood tests. Then corrective surgery. Then waiting for IVF. Then that doesn't work. Then alternatives. All of a sudden, years have gone by and most of that time is trying to prepare yourself for a baby. Maybe you bought a pretty three bedroom house. That just invites the questions, doesn't it? Why did you buy a house for just you and your husband? When are you two having kids? Ughhh it's exhausting. All this waiting for life to start (literally). Not to mention all the things I changed and put on hold (my career, mostly). And now... MAYBE I'll be pregnant next month. Maybe the month after. Or maybe never? It's. just. exhausting. And the banality! The waiting. The days, weeks, months, years. The trips we didn't take, the money we spent (wasted?), the parties we couldn't bring ourselves to attend. SIGH.
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