So, they called yesterday with the progress: of the seven eggs retrieved, six were mature and four fertilized. I guess that's pretty good, but it still felt like a gut punch. I cried and tried my best to be positive. After ALL THAT, only FOUR embryos?? It was so much hard work, so much determination, so much money. And I thought we'd have more, to be honest. But I did my best to keep faith and hope going and believe that all four would make it to transfer day.
This process can be so frustrating, let me tell you. You're jacked up on hormones, you want this thing to work so bad, everyone around you is giving birth and getting pregnant all the time, and you're just doing injections and feeling like shit all the time. All the shitty feelings you get when you're pregnant, you get all that. Except you're not pregnant. AND YOU GET FAT goddammit. So, yeah, this is tough. Today's call was great, though, because we learned that all four are still going strong, they're all multiplying and doing well. Transfer will be Sunday and I'm going to try to work from home on Monday to just let myself breathe a bit. But the good news is that we still have four. Listen, if we ended up with four great embryos, I'd be happy. We could transfer two this time and two the next time. And have babies and a family, and that's all I've ever wanted. Something that I've found helpful during this stressful time is to meditate and visualize the embryos doing well, sending them love and nurturing. It might sound strange, but I'm finding it better than that Mindful IVF app I wrote about a few days ago, which actually is stressing me out. Because instead of focusing on relaxing, I'm stressing about things.
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November 2017
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