11/29/2017 0 Comments happy little ovariesSo I thought I'd update while I'm feeling good. I'm feeling good today, which is a vast improvement on yesterday. Yesterday I was alternating between nausea, hot flashes, farts galore and just a general rage. Today feels smooth and fine. I've managed to cut down on caffeine a LOT over the past few days. I'm down to half a cup of caffeinated coffee per day. Yesterday I only had a caffeinated tea, actually. I felt so rough yesterday after my morning smoothie, I've decided to take a break from smoothies altogether and stick to eggs in the morning. (JOKE: How do you like your eggs? Fertilized! Ha.)
Speaking of which, I had my blood/ultrasound appointment this morning. This are looking good, I have some good follies growing. (I responded well last time, so the doctor thinks I should be good this time. She said I'm an overachiever, ha.) I probably have to start ganirelix today, that stops me from ovulating because things in my body WANT to happen. We need them to wait. The nurse also said that my retrieval could be as early as Monday. It's a bit awkward to schedule because I haven't told my boss that I'm doing IVF, so I just told him I have "surgery" planned but I haven't been able to tell him the day. He's probably wondering why surgery wouldn't be a fixed date. But fuck, who wants to tell their younger male boss about their fertility issues? At a job they've only been in for 7 months? Not me. He doesn't really ask, but I can tell he wants to know what's going on. And now for: THE ART OF SAYING NO The art of saying no is integral to master if you are going through IVF (or perhaps another kind of medical treatment). Of course it's easier to say no and then give IVF as your reason, but if you don't want to share what you're going through, it can get tricky. I spent a long time (years) not telling anyone about our fertility struggle. And there are still many people I've chosen to not share with about it, mainly for professional reasons (see above). But there was a time when I didn't even tell my family what was going on at all. Then I was forced to tell them when I started missing important events (family parties, etc) to stay home and do injections. (SIDE NOTE: It's okay, recommended, even, to not make plans in the evenings you're doing injections. I do not go out when I have injections that night, it's too much fuss/stress for me to carry around syringes with me.) Now, if I'm going through treatment, I tell people that I can't make their party/dinner/our plans because I'm having a bad reaction to the meds or I have injections scheduled. They (usually) get it. Sometimes they don't get it - some of my family don't understand what IVF is and how much time/energy it sucks away. And for those people, I say, too bad. I am not upsetting my treatment to go on a family vacation or a birthday party. And that's that. I've decided not to feel bad, not to wring my hands wondering what people must think (even the people who don't know what I'm going through) because who has time? Who has room for ANOTHER thing to worry about? I already have an office baby shower to attend. Y'know?
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