So our four embryos are still dividing, which is SO GREAT. I was so relieved when the clinic called with this information today and remained relieved for another five minutes. Then I started getting nervous for tomorrow. But we made it a day at least and we still have four. The call today confirmed that we will be going to a Day 5 transfer (BLASTOCYST!) ... I like the word blastocyst. It feels like POWER.
I told J how I was feeling about the eggs and donor stuff. He is such an amazing human, he was really sensitive about it. I was crying up a storm this morning. I've noticed that the birth control made me feel a lot more emotional than the stims and now the progesterone I'm on is taking the emotional cake (I wish I was eating cake right now). Today I can cry on cue. In other news, it doesn't bother me that everyone I know is pregnant or has babies but I really wish my sister would a) ask me how I'm doing with IVF and b) stop snapchatting me 18 selfies of her and her baby everyday. It's really hard to deal with some people's insensitivities during this process. I think a lot of people don't know what to say because it's a sensitive topic but really it would just be nice for people to check in. Luckily I have a support network of friends who are great people. I also can't deal with J's mom's tone deaf comments, but it's a good reminder that I was right not to tell my parents about this because they just wouldn't get it. Tonight is my meditation class, so it will be good to just spend a couple hours in that space.
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November 2017
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