2/8/2017 0 Comments egg updateI got my call this morning. The news wasn't the best: out of 16 eggs, 15 were good. 4 fertilized 4. So we have 4. The good news is that more could develop but there isn't much hope for them. This isn't the outcome I was hoping for. I have gone through so many emotions today so far, one strong emotion is regret. Regret that I didn't insist of putting a few eggs aside for the donor sperm. Mainly I didn't want to hurt J's feelings and now I really regret not trying harder to push for that outcome. But it is what it is and we have to hope for the best with these four embryos.
Of course we have a backup plan, and that is to do IUI with our donor sperm. To be honest, I'm mad at J for putting off choosing the donor so long, I feel like I was backed into the one we chose. I am trying not to judge myself for these feelings and observe them. They will pass. These feelings will pass and we will be fine. But this feels like such a massive blow for now. Statistically only 30% of embryos make it. So hopefully we end up with 2 to day 5 and the one we put in will stick and it will become our baby. I have to believe that this will work for now, I can't give up. I am still taking hormones (progesterone, vaginally) and I can't afford to lose hope right now. But goddamnit infertility is a bitch. I will repeat to myself: IT ONLY TAKES ONE.
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