Soo I wanted to find a picture of a womb to use as the image for this post but I found some shitty pregnancy announcements that said things like "only the best parents get promoted to grandparents" (I'm sure if that was true, we really wouldn't have an overpopulation problem in the world). Now that we've established that, today was the day they put an embryo in my womb! That really happened.
Only one little guy made it, so I feel like that means he's the best guy and a fighter. I am trying to stay positive but also to think, if this guy doesn't make it, then it was self-selection and it wasn't meant to be. I wouldn't want a guy with problems to go ahead and be in pain or anything. I will leave it at that. After the only takes one mantra, we are here at one. It is scary and sad that only one made it (what if this one DOES make it but we want two?) (what if this one doesn't make it? what's our next step?) The reality of the situation is that we were very lucky to have this one round of IVF covered and the meds covered. If we want to do this again, it's $15k with a possibly similar result. I think that if we did decide to do that, I would ask that some of the eggs be implanted with donor sperm. If I could go back in time and do this again, I would have used the donor sperm for a couple of eggs. That way, we might have been left with some embryos to freeze for later - and it would have been free to transfer them. Now if we do another round privately, we'll have to pay to freeze any leftover embryos and each transfer will cost $2000. Expensive life lesson learned. Aside from that, there is an embryo inside of my womb and I got to see it go in on the little ultrasound machine and it looked like a white dot. I really really really really really hope it sticks to my lining and becomes a baby guy. It's hard to be positive when there are so many factors. Also it's kind of condescending when people keep telling you to be positive all day long when you're a rational logical person with thoughts and feelings and knowledge and statistics. So I remain hopeful and realistic.
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