1/8/2017 0 Comments Day 1.Day 1. Numero uno.
Yesterday I called the secret number. The "red eagle has landed" number. No one's been more excited to get her period since a Judy Blume novel in the 80s. I got it! So yesterday marked the first day of my first round of IVF. Tomorrow I start taking the Mirvala 21 pill from a previous post. It's birth control. I am most afraid of: gaining weight and giving myself injections. In that order. I realized this yesterday when I couldn't zip up my coat after eating my way through Christmas. I was very sad. It sucks that the people I was having Christmas with made it so much about me eating/not eating etc so much that I just ate to make them happy. Now months of training have gone down the toilet and my clothes don't fit. It sucks how women are mocked for being careful about what they put into their bodies and then mocked for the way their bodies look. We can't win. And before someone tells me that I "shouldn't" worry about the way my body looks THANKS SO MUCH! Never considered that. So the last time I took birth control I was fat. The whole time. This time I'm taking that and some pretty strong hormones, so. Goodbye, body! Goodbye control of emotions! Oh, did I mention I'm scared about this whole thing? Day 1! But hopefully I'll be pregnant in the next two months. That would be good.
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